Wednesday, June 7, 2017
Divine Comedy
It sucks to wake up heartbroken, with your past lying in bed beside you, staring you intimately in the face, as if your own history were the only pages ever written that matter. It really sucks on a day like today, another such beautiful late Spring day in Minnesota, full of warm sunshine and gentle breezes, to start the day in tears you just can't keep off your cheeks, because your chest is caving in. It's all in your mind; you're not alone. You haven't fucked up every important moment in your life--just most of them--and you're not entirely a failure--you just feel like one, for various reasons. You haven't missed every opportunity...just some of the really significant ones, maybe. You're not single, you just don't have a partner, per se, right now--or for the past several years--and just because you have no future plans doesn't mean the future won't come to pass. It will probably come sooner than you think, because time's a bitch like that. In fact, guess what? It's here now, and you have a hundred things to do today and more tomorrow, and the next day, and the day after that, and the one after that, too. And for the entire next week after that, actually. You're too busy to worry about how you feel or what you need or what you're missing, much less the past and other things you can't change (or can you?). So get up, get dressed, tell your painfully loyal PMS to go fuck her bloody self, and enjoy this goddamn gorgeous day for the blessing it truly is. There will never be another like it. And don't you forget it.
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