Thursday, February 26, 2015

more bs for no real reason

Ahhh... it's always nice to get home from an extra long day at work, and settle in to do some more work.

It's also nice that the house smells vaguely of pine tar, I guess, but I wish it smelled more like dinner right about now.  At least I've got leftover short ribs to look forward to, even if the glare of the computer screen is beginning to feel like the beating mid-day sun on a fifty-mile trek across a desert landscape...

The Surly-braised short ribs are quite good by the way, as is the bison ribeye, in case you find yourself over at Happy Gnome on any old evening.

I've been busy lately, with this and that, but probably too much of that and not enough of this, if I must be honest.

It was good to hang out with my sister and the kiddos last weekend, and good to play outside for a short time.  Good to be looking forward to an island getaway at the end of next month, and good to have friends come to visit me here, and stay for a while. Good to take up a new hobby, and good to be getting an earlier start. Good to be sleeping through the night, and good to have my wheels aligned. Good to be where I am, but I can't say it couldn't be better.

Work's been a bear and not letting up. Some project work with new folks this week has been both energizing and tiring, but has gotten me no closer to fulfilling my obligations with regard to some neglected tasks which by anyone's measure could only be regarded as, relatively or objectively speaking, far less significant. Or maybe just less exciting. I need to work harder, do more, make it better, get it done. I'm not lazy, but I'm not as fast, not as focused, not as energetic as I used to be, and some things are just harder for me than I wish they were. Like, it's really becoming difficult for me to read contracts, and I don't think it's just an eyesight problem... I just can't fucking stand to do it, and when I try, it's like my cognitive abilities are instantly eviscerated. I suspect this is an early symptom of what is sometimes referred to as "burnout". On the bright side, at least I've had some opportunities in recent weeks to do work that engages me, and to remember what that feels like, instead of clocking out at the end of a long day feeling like a dud and a failure because of my job. This is important, because I can't see finding a new job without knowing what I'm good at and what I like to do. In all modesty, I'm being totally "under-utilized" in my current role, and it does start to wear on a person after a while, when other people and their bizarre and/or lame circumstances prevent a person from realizing their own potential as a human being, much less a "team member". That, I do believe, is a pretty good indication that a person should be looking for a new place of employment. As if I needed any more evidence.

Here's a random piece of information for today, which I just stumbled across... Apparently there are cultures that don't use "ego-centric" directions to orient themselves to things, such as left and right, front and back, or anything that's relative to their person. They use cardinal directions or "geographical" orientation. So if you were over there, and I was over here, and I wanted you to go further away, I would say go West, or go South, or wherever it was that was the opposite of my direction. I think that's pretty interesting.

Personally, I'd like to be going North, and spending some more time in the snow up there if I can find some, and it's getting to be that time of year again where there's not a lot of opportunity left to be doing that. Time to get a move on!

Anyway, I'm babbling, hungry, and tired of this screen, so I'm going to switch over the other one and get back to work. Take it easy dudes.

No comments: