Thursday, July 9, 2009

A Mouthful of Cherries (Life is Just)

Dear fellows, I am not ungrateful. The depth of my gratitude, and appreciation, for the life I was born into, for sweet surprises, for the spinning cosmos, for serendipity and yes, for the esteemed role I play in the tragedy of our so-called economy, is truly far too great to be expressed in words. I am and have been more than fortunate; blessed, some might say. I am, also, ornery, crabby, burnt-out, witchy, sad and frustrated. And, mainly, probably, just weary of the capitalist model of existence. It's not that there has to be a better way; there IS a better way. Maybe I was born in the wrong century, or on the wrong continent. This grossly self-centered American Way I've been reluctantly trying to follow is turning me into a monster, only part human, stretching my identity until it's nothing more than a wire, strung out from here to the end of the last footpath that leads into what was once wilderness, and is now another filling station. What are we filling our selves with?

Oh, it is a Happy Day. I am relieved of employment tomorrow, however briefly, and look forward to a trip to the beautiful State of Iowa, to visit good friends and hear some fine tunes. And--to my sweet delight--I arrived home this evening to home-grown salad in the spinner, home-made pizza dough rising and a bag full of cherries in the fridge, right next to a tall, cold can of Surly. Who's complaining?

4 comments:

JSP said...

I certainly relate to some of your concerns about living in the now in America. We both know that exponential growth based on unfettered capitalism is mind-numbingly insane. How do we live in the system, while at the same time escaping from it? One thing that comes to mind is building our own community. Living close to each other, sharing resources, growing some of our food, helping each other out as we grow older. Hope you have a good weekend Emma and look forward to spending some time with you.

fremenine said...

The simple truth of your wise words reminds me that my intent is to explore those very positive alternatives here, instead of getting myself caught up in the daily grind. Nice to see you here, even better to see you in person next week... :)

JB aka JayBee said...

I look forward to that.

JB aka JayBee said...

I enjoyed dinner with you tonight. Thanks for your company.